saw two great movies today (hohokam & team picture), though to be honest i'm getting tired of watching films about twentysomethings trying to figure out life (a pity, because the two i saw today are two of the best in the series). before team picture i saw joe swanberg (i love his films and i sent him questions for my article over myspace) and he recognized me so i basically freaked out on the inside. i didn't want to gush re: the way i did when i talked to regina spektor's mother so instead i was uber uber-shy and mumbled (the irony!) stupid things like "i like your film. yea, the questions. see you." hot sweat, pumping heart, the likes. which brings me back to my previous question:
WHY AM I SO FUCKING SOCIALLY RETARDED?!
and basically living online doesn't help because it doesn't make me see how shy i am. online it's easy to be myself because of the barrier and anonymity. so i think i am being sociable until i see people.
people are just people. but it's so fucking hard. and here i am whining to my blog. haha. i feel like i need to start writing in my diary again. my problems were all so clear then, except for i tried to fix them in really superficial ways like cutting my hair and losing weight.
just saw sweetie.
i love jane campion.
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