morning! morning!

and if it takes forever
then i'll wait forever
- stephanie zinone, grease 2

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I know it's stupid, but I can't shake the sense that statues move. It's childish, I know. I'm crazy, I know.

I want to do it but I can't do it! I can't do it! Its hands, its thighs. Its muscles. Look at its knuckles and its toes. Fingers for movement. Lips for movement. Muscles for movement. And yet as still as stone. How could they know that when those fingers froze, they would become nothing but frozen fingers?

I know it wants to move. A smile frozen on its face yet frustrated by the cars zipping by and the dogs barking and all the runners. They're jealous. Watching a world going by with stone-cold eyes. They scare me, these statues.

I see them ambling slowly towards my bedroom window, stomping home. Digging their hands into the brick and climbing and in my dreams they come in tens

Oh I see you.

With eyes and lips and bones and knuckles, frozen, stuck and they just didn't know and I always say tomorrow. But one day I will die and this will be all I had.
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Eternity is my comfort zone! When I can't sleep I imagine myself naked and doing the breaststroke up and out of the city, swimming softly into a black and starless sky. And the city becomes the stars. A star. No star. And nothing. In one of my dreams a whale comes crashing into my window. I hate immense things.

But it doesn't see us, it just does not. Look at it! It's just amazing! And they never knew that one day their teeth wouldn't move in their jaws and their eyes wouldn't blink in their eye sockets. They thought they were going somewhere, but only this.

When my grandmother died, my mother cried, saying, "why do we stock up our pots and pans waiting to put them in a better house with better curtains?" And then to have only this. She said, "no one knows why we freeze our days with hope and blind our eyes with if only." Birth and death. Nothing before and nothing after. And, waiting for absolutely nothing, life can feel like a lot of sitting and staring.
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i think people that post pictures of the things they want to buy on their blogs are indicative of a materialistic and consumerist culture (originial thought there) but let me wear that hat and wear it proud for the next few seconds:

the panasonic AG-HVX200. waouw!