raindance

it's a funny feeling
this feeling that makes me
turn 180 degrees when i
think about outside eyes
seeing me.

but i am writing at least,
and the products are...
in progress.

and maybe this year
can take me from
dream to destination.

but i am also sick and it is making me feel very bad as expected. i need to wake up at 7am for work and i can't sleep because my sinuses are swollen and i can't breathe and my head feels blocked and achy and i don't want to sleep because that's all i've been doing and i am starting to not care about anything and living a life of empty thoughts and spending my day searching for the word for "target puzzle". at least i found it.