nightmare

i lost my employer's key
and i am thus screwed.
i only have a week left
in the bay area.
i can't sleep.

i had myself an uber-organized day in which i booked my flight back to nyc, booked a medical appointment, a room for the end of summer, got my ups boxes, got the new NYLON, and started to pack. uber-organized. tomorrow i'm heading back up to san francisco (possibly for the last time) to get myself some good jeans. my family and i part ways in a week and i think i've grown too used to having them around again. i fear gargantuan withdrawal symptoms. four months is always too long. i have decided that this year i will be a lot healthier and therefore a lot happier (hence the medical appointment). in my lonely two weeks in new york city i will get into the habit of running at dodge & getting out of my junkfood-vegetarian diet. it's really sad that i put on rather than lost weight this summer, though my whole body (save for my tumtum as demonstrated below) is more toned from riding and walking too much. if i was skinny enough i would shave all my hair off. but this is all small talk. on a blog. i haven't finished one short story to my satisfaction. but i've only known that kind of satisfaction through keeping my stories in the drawer for months and then stumbling upon them. i should sleep. i never do.