a day

i've just found out that bergman's dead.

today has been a shitty day.

this year we've lost vonnegut and bergman

but i won't call it a shitty year.

my days have been days filled with office paperwork, finishing the communist manifesto screaming yes yes yes! but knowing that theory & practice are like water & oil, i cry. what i take from it is that i hate hate hate the drudgery of capitalism which, incidentally coincides (hehe) with me watching SiCKO and further hating the greed in a society when the only human desire is to maximize profits. in a society "fighting for the human rights" of other nations but denying it to its own people (unless it is profitable!). companies will diversify the colour of their foundations and blushes to reach wider demographics but won't show a same-sex couple in a teenage magazine, won't GIVE A CHILD MEDICAL ATTENTION for fear of losing profits. and what is profit? does money follow you to the grave?

i feel that humanity is united in death. rich poor straight gay, labels abound end at the grave. the one thing we can all understand is that each end every one of us, despite our differences, will die. so when people are unfairly dying - war, a corrupt medical system, hate crimes, a violent "revolution" - it only seems natural that everyone should be outraged.

because everyone deserves the revolution.

I am going to LA in 2 days!

& i won't be in hong kong this summer.

instead i am moving in early and paying $35/night.

if healthcare wasn't at the front of my mind

it would be education because all basic human rights should be removed from the capitalist sphere (even if a society is capitalist).

i hate to define myself politically, in fact i don't see myself as political, just a human being that reacts to wrongdoing. and i believe every human being should react to wrongdoing (and let's not philosophize the term "wrong"). it is not heroic or intelligent, it is basic. but, especially over the past year since i've moved to america and seen the fucked up things that happen in a corrupt society that i am not in the upper throes of, i would say that i am an anarchist in personal life (ie i don't want government involvement in my or anyone else's personal/social life, they shouldn't be able to tell me who i can marry, what i can do etc) and economically i am don't know what.

i hate defining myself.