I Should Probably Stop Importing These To Facebook

because people don't need to know about my confusion but my dad always tells me that people may talk, but it doesn't mean they know. too true. and this isn't about anyone in particular, this is more about me being too open and trying out new clothes and seeing that, while they look awesome on other people, they make me look like a fat chicken with drumsticks for legs. i mean, i assumed i decided to spend another four years studying because I wanted to become but i guess that doesn't work when i am bumping up against stone.

and here's what I think about politics: I didn't come to college to discuss politics, I didn't come here to discuss party politics and especially not american politics when it represents a smidgeon of the world that i know. and i didn't come here to argue with people who are sure about what they believe. and because i don't give a shit about politics (in terms of parties like democrat, repulican, socialist, communist, whatever-ist), i shouldn't be made ot feel like i don't have opinions that matter. because i care about ending the war, and i care that women are being denied the right to choose, but i can care about issues outside of the politics. and i don't think politics is the only way to change the world because, at the end of the day, you may be fighting for rights for the kid whose hell is inside. and there's no going forward when people approach the world the way they do politics: with their own interests in mind. there's no progress in that. good for you if the political shoe fits, but i'm here to change the world the way i know how: by moving people, by moving person. if i die having lifted one person out of existence and into life, i'm done.

i'm not into politics and it's been so hard for me to admit that because everyone makes me feel like i should be. but i'm not. and i'm not going to enter discussions in which people simply want to push their views onto one another. i am not going to be told i'm wrong because i don't care for any political party or i don't know the intricasies of the american constitution. because america is only the centre of the world if you make it the centre of the world.

and for those of you that know, this has nothing to do with tonight. this has everything to do with my frustration with myself because i let my need to try new things & try everything make me impressionable. and i realized that tonight. whilst knitting the scarf i'll never finish.