new blog!

go here?
http://tobogganeer.wordpress.com/

lately i've been obsessing over mutilating myself.
and my top two ways are:

AIRPORT CODE TATTOO
(phil's idea which i didn't like at first but surprisingly warmed up to. it will be of the places where i've [substantially] lived and will be expanded as i continue to move). it will look something like:

ACC / TRD / SFO / HKG / JFK

not taking into account places i moved back to. and not taking into account the fact that i've grown tired of my past tattoo ideas. we'll see.

TRAGUS (EAR) PIERCING
(am mere dollars away from doing this...with a barbell!)

small change

i am filled with sunny nostalgia
because i just saw a professor's son
settling down into his haphazard
office with afterschool anecdotes.

memories.

crossed-out

i am sitting here and glowing because i've finished the carmex ad and i have a new idea for a short movie that involves:
- a mother trying to buy a dildo on ebay
- a father that is an ex porn star
- and a son that is parading as a 70-year-old woman

isn't it romantic?

and one day i will reclaim the ability to write creatively and write well. but for now i am just getting rid of the things that press against my chest.

also, when i watch a cinematic glorification of the everyday, am i simply being defamiliarized? or am i pining for a suddenly unattainable everyday? self-perpetuating alienation or something to do with negative feedback and defamiliarizing & because it is film you are not inputting your own version of the ideal but pining for that very specific boy in the very specific white t-shirt in the very specific beard, and wasn't that staged? and how can anyone live up to it? and have we broken the filmspace and what does that mean for our reality and our everyday AND I NEED TO WRITE A PAPER OR I'LL DIE (i am trying to resist the academic in me)

ma'am

almost done!

finely

- major debates in the study of africa
- intermediate fiction workshop
- film theory I
- shakespeare & the 18th century
- intro to linguistics
- silent cinema

new digs

my headaches are returning just in time for school
& i will burn more calories on the walk home.